OK, I will admit it, I can't do everything... at least not all of the time... not perfectly or gracefully or even maintain a poker face while I am trying.
This week has been extremely trying--- maybe even overwhelmingly trying.
It's been hard helping Em adjust to her new braces. She got them on last week only to have a bracket pop off the very first day, plus she's been stubbornly and bravely dealing with the pain.
So, we thought we got the bracket issue taken care of, only to have it pop off AGAIN! Fracture number one in my carefully crafted veneer of "I can do it all!"
Last Friday I started coming down with a cold. It's what happens when you work in an office with tons of people going in and out (I don't mind the people - really! - ok, most of the time). Since things are so busy at work, I have been working through the stupid cold... Fracture number two.....
As I said, this week has been incredibly busy. Staffing has changed somewhat at the office-- one person has gone to part-time, another left for a job far-far-away (and I am not talking about the land of Shrek- hmmm..... I wonder how one gets there?....). And another co-worker has been seriously ill for more than a month. Did I say that work has been BUSY? Fracture number three.....
Juggling: I used to think that juggling was something that I do very well. And then again, maybe not. Fracture number four.....
A poker face: Nope, definitely NOT good at that. I tried, I really tried, but today I guess I really couldn't pull it off. I seemed to have frightened/shocked/surprised/worried my boss today. As I realized he was leaving for the office today I asked a question and he remarked, "I don't think I have seen that look on your face before. Just breathe." And then, remarkably, my poker face didn't exactly improve. I stopped at the store on the way home and noticed that people were either trying to go way out of their way to be helpful or they were steering out of my path. OK, do I look that dreadful? Once home my family noted that I looked a little "off-center". At this point, fractures one through four collided and split into dozens more and I am left sitting here tonight realizing that I need a serious TIME OUT!
Yes, I am tired, and stressed and staring a million deadlines in the face this week. Next week ought to be interesting as most of the staff will either be a) on vacation b) at training c) out sick or d) stuck with me-- don't you wish you could be so lucky? I can promise you that for those of us in the "d" category-- next week will certainly NOT be boring. But I do promise to keep breathing. One breath at a time, one moment at a time, one project at a time. But really, can someone please put me in time out and soon?
To end on a positive note, Em's braces are hurting her less, despite some canker sores, and there's a full moon tonight surrounding by an endless sea of stars. I am thankful for God's creation. It's just one thing that gets me through-- and yes, I do realize that despite everything that's broken, melted, blown up, etc. this week that I am blessed.
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